Nameless for Now

I finally heard from the three doctors who are working my case. Apparently the one doctor who I thought was going to pursue a possible answer is now decided to back down. (Again I truly believe there are unfortunate circumstances circumventing his position as my doctor). The surgeon said he saw nothing of significance which to me sounds kind of like a contradiction to what my primary doctor had said three days ago. But my primary consulted with another doctor and they are now agreeing to send me back to a specialist who back in June told me she can't help me. They both also agree that I should get a second opinion from someone in the same specialty. As I run my hands agitatedly over my face, I'm not sure what to do other than pray. I'm growing increasingly nervous because my weight is dropping and my symptoms are getting worse. 
Yesterday was a particularly bad day, but just an example of how I live. Waking up with the shivers and severe nausea is anticipated so much that I hide a big bowl in my room so I don't have to run to a bathroom to become ill. I'm finding now that one of my biggest frustrations is the lack of consistency I can give to people. When I say I'm going to be somewhere, I used to always follow through. Now I am beginning to realize that I can't be that person all the time with this illness. I don't like that, but it does give me time to reflect on God and what he's doing with my life. I appreciate those times. I just also wish I could be the friend and person I was. Well, that's not realistic because the Lord is growing me in so many ways. But I look forward to the day when I can actually share what's happening in my life in person or meet with good people for coffee as normal people usually do :

If you could please pray for my aunts and uncles, my uncle Jimmy is dying of throat cancer. We just found out and we're not sure how long he has. My aunt is with him caring for him and I just pray for her strength and courage in caring for her brother. That he feels how much we love him and how God loves him through her.

Thanks all
Britt