More than Just Me

Last night was a hard night like many I've had in the past. With the semester moving behind me, my body's crashing and becoming ill in more ways that the norm. But in the midst of all these heath issues, there is more the Lord is trying to teach me. And even though I am the one who prayed for a bad year, as always this lessen is more than just for me.

On Wednesday afternoon, someone who understands me better that most died from complications that have yet to be clarifies. Her name is Kate Bucknall and she's my grandma. I know you read that she's a grandma and at first your mind thinks well that's kind of normal. Well its not because this extraordinary woman was only 61 years old and in seemingly perfect health. So to say this was a shock is an understatement. 
Grandma Kay is a strong woman who has been through just about everything you can imagine. Perhaps that's why she was so good at holding everyone together. She's seen it all and knew almost everything I would wager. And she would be there for you even if she'd only known you for a day. Her heart was big enough for everyone.
She's so smart, so funny, patient, hard working, loving, gentle, stern and balanced that the next time you read Proverbs 31, picture this woman.

Upon looking in the mirror, I thank God that I have her genes. She too is a writer and even went to the Master's College which is now where I attend. I'm named after her, my middle name being Katharine. I have her dark brown thick curly hair and the same petite little frame. I even tilt my head the  same way in photos. Now the next step is to make my heart as much like hers as possible. 
So what is the Lord trying to teach me by taking this amazing woman away? I have no idea yet. I miss her so badly that there is no words in our language to describe it. I am writing this with the full intentions of updating it as I discover what this loss is supposed to mean. As for now, all I can do is love her; just as I loved her two weeks ago when we had coffee together. I love you Grandma.